“Cast your burden (releasing the weight of it) upon the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never allow the righteous to be shaken (made to slip, fall or fail).” (Ps 55:22)
Greetings in the name of the Lord friends! How are ya’ll? Sorry if I did not update my blog for a long time.. I was homesick and I missed my Inay so much and I had a bad head ache and last week I just had my quiet time with the Lord.. Some people might not understand me, but I had to listen to God’s voice and wait for His confirmation.. .. Friends I love you all and you are always in my prayers… Last week, I felt that I was so lonely for no reason.. I just had my whole week quiet and cried unto the Lord.. I am longing to have a baby and I asked Him to bless me a baby.. I used the preg test and it was negative.. You know friends, lagi ako nagtetest after we got married, lagi negative.. ayaw ko na nga minsan magtest kasi ayokong malaman ang result.. .. I cried when i saw the result.. My husband was there with me.. But you know what friends, God comforted me.. After I took the test, I read the bible and I found His Words.. He said that He knows my plan for me.. And thanks be to God, I know that in His Most perfect time He will give the desire of my heart…
“Oh God, I confess that I cannot hold myself up. But I thank you that you have promised to hold me up. I cling to you and to Your life-giving words. Lord please, give us a baby Lord.. Please Lord.. Patawad po Panginoon sa lahat ng mga nagawa, nasabi o naisip kong di nakalugod sa paningin Mo.. Thank you Lord for everything, Lord I know in Your Most Perfect time You will give us a healthy baby, I claim it in Jesus name.” Amen..
And thanks God, kasi muli ibinalik Nya ang sigla sa akin.. Ang asawa ko po ay nagaalala kasi di po sya sanay na makita akong hindi nakangiti o hindi nagsasalita.. Salamat sa Diyos at ibinalik Nya ang sigla sa katawan ko.. Last Saturday, nagpunta po kami sa wedding ng isa sa mga pinay na kaibigan ko.. nagbihis po agad sya at low bat po ang cell ko kaya wala po akong maraming pics na nakuha.. Ang digi cam namn po ay naiwan sa sasakyan kaya di ko po di ako nakapgtake ng maraming pictures.. After the wedding namn po, we went my friend’s birthday.. We had a swimming party , syempre halos lahat filpino foods handa.. Menudo, tilapia, pancit, crema de fruta at marami pang iba.. and it was great! Praise the Lord.. Thanks God for giving her another year of life.. Ledjie dear, my prayers are always with you.. And I and Rance will always be your friends forever…
(ay nakaswimsuit si Sis Melody, hehehe)
I went to my sweetheart’s office yesterday to vist his co worker because they heard that I was lonely for the past few days.. So I went to see them and tell them Im doing fine.. 
And they are waiting for my baby also..And we went to my OB/GYN again yesterday. I thought I was pregnant, but the pregnancy test was negative. I was really sad when she said the result, that I wasn’t pregnant. My sweetheart saw my teary eyes while the doctor was talking to me.. She told me that I shouldn’t worry, because I’m young and healthy and there’s no reason that I won’t have a baby. She gave me a medicine to start my period and then I will start taking Clomid five days after my period starts and take it for five days. Then hopefully I will get pregnant during the week after I finish taking the Clomid. 
After 31 or 32 days, if my period hasn’t started again, 
I am supposed to take a pregnancy test. If I don’t get pregnant I will have to go back to see the doctor again so she can make sure the medicine isn’t causing a cyst in my ovaries then I will repeat the whole process again. She told me that I need more rest and keep on enjoying my marriage life with my husband and wait till it comes.. I really dont understand my feelings, I was so lonely but then God comforted me.. He reminded me how blessed I am.. My sweetheart was lonely too but he told me that we sholud wait patiently for the Lord’s perfect time… I got lots of phone calls from friends and relatives asking the result of my doctor’s appointment.. And I texted my friends that who were waiting also for the result.. My sweetheart hugged me and we prayed together in the car.. maga ang mata kaya nakasalamin..
Tunay na Dakila ang Panginoon, yung makita ko pa lang na ang asawa ko ay isang napakabuting tao, makita ang kalinisan ng puso nya ay isa ng pagpapala mula sa Panginoon.. Kaya kung di man ako magkababy sa ngayon alam ko na ang Diyos ay nakikita ang laman ng aking puso…. And i want to be more closer now with Him.. more than ever before… And He said in His Words: Do not be anxious about anything,but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Lord God, I draw close to You today, grateful that You will draw close to me as You have promised in Your Word.. I long to dwell in Your presence, and I want to know You in every way You can be known.. Teach me Lord, what I need to learn in order to know You better… I don’t want to be a person who is always learning and never be able to come to the knowledge of truth.. I want to know the truth about who You are, beacuse I know that You are near to all who call upon You in the truth..Lord I pray that You will help me not to worry about having a baby Lord.. You know my heart Panginoon, You can see the desire of my heart Lord.. But most of all Lord, please abide with me forever.. Your Spirit whom the world cannot offer, please always dwell in my heart Lord.. Lord help me to avoid thinking about it and not to focus on those things that the world can offer, but You alone Lord.. More of You Lord and less of me.. Your presence in my life Lord.. Just continue to use me Lord for Your glory alone and help me not to worry about things around me.. Thank You Lord for giving me Your Son.. Renew my spirit Lord.. Panginoon, maraming maraming salamat po sa presencia Mo sa mga sandaling ito.. sa mga sandaling higit Kitang kailangan.. Ikaw lamang Panginoon ang lahat lahat sa akin.. Manatili po nawang masigla ang puso ko at alisin Mo ang anumang bumabalakid sa buhay ko para higit na mapalapit sa Iyo.. Salamat po Oh Panginoon.. Ikaw na rin po Panginoon ang Syang magpala at anuman po ang mga nais ng bawat kaibigan ko, o sinumang makabasa nito ay pagpalain Mo sila at maging ang kanilang pamilya, Ikaw po na Dakilang Diyos ang Siyang tumugon sa kanilang mga panalangin.. Sa Iyo ko po ibinabalik lahat ng papuri, pasasalamat, pagsamba at pagdakila sa Matamis na Pangalan ni Hesus at sa kapangayrihan ng Banal na Espiritu.. Amen..
Longing to Your Glorious Presence,
Sis Melody,
not I, but You Lord be glorify in my life
ASK GOD TO DWELL IN YOUR HEART!
